June – 6/4/11 – Saturday
Let’s say, for the sake of example, that I’m annoyed, I’m irritated. That’s not an entirely hard thing to imagine. I do get that way.
The first question is: Why? And from experience, I know that I could explain the situation in great detail of who did what and when, and now I’m irritated as a result, but that would’t truly answer why this feeling of annoyance flares within me. The same set of circumstances could occur and it is also possible, even ideal, that I not be annoyed.
Research is showing that life is rather binary. Whole sets of raw material exist, but what makes a condition is whether an element is on or off, a one or a null, a true or a false, etc., etc. So an experience happens and “one”, “true”, “on”, I am annoyed.
Why? Why does that happen? Well, I imagine it is because that is how the switch is set, for whatever reason. The life current is merely taking the path of least resistance, and it is obeying the signal: “yes to annoyance.”
Why “yes to annoyance”? Well, there was a reason at some point that the switch was set that way, but that doesn’t mean the reason can be known to us, known to our conscious earth-bound character-selves, right now. And if I don’t know that there is a switch, I can be resigned that this is just how I am, someone who gets annoyed.
But there is a switch, it exists, and I can divorce myself from the option it is on. Not like a light, not in an instance; obviously not. But I can stop every time that channel is taken and back track to the point it occurred, then, at some point, the switch becomes tangible.
I use annoyance as an example because I do go and get myself annoyed and it doesn’t appear to be particularly helpful—it is a feeling of forced-truth. It’s a defense mechanism, I’m sure, to warn me against injustices and ill conceived devices, and for that I’m grateful. When I was young and weak, it was a good thing that kept unwanted forces at bay.
I am not young nor weak anymore, and what annoyance does now is divert me from other options, more inclusive options. These options could have been detrimental in my younger days, a whole new mine field of ones and zeros that could have become crystallized in very disadvantageous ways in relation to my authentic, pre-chosen self, my Self Senz’altro, where there is no other switch path than the one I’m on.
I know, to be more myself than I’ve ever been, I have to divorce myself from annoyance-on and embrace the path of annoyance-off. I imagine that could all get a positive skin to it where I embrace temperance-on. It will be a new experience. Life will give me many chances to fail until I succeed. If I am conscious of the switch, though, that is surely a sign that it is time to shift this particular consciousness variable.
It is time.